Recently I spoke to my one and only friend who knows I am a Sugarbaby. He is working in the state, letting him know is not a threat to me. We haven't talk to each other for a long while, this means during this period of time I haven't talked to anyone about Mister. So when I finally get to do it, I purge all my thoughts out.

My friend is neither approved or disaproved for where I am standing. But I don't think he has that much of experience or understanding to this sort of things. He makes a point that, whatever is going on now, isn't what I truly want. Duhhh.

Of course it's not. That's why I am here. I don't see Mister will do me any harm so far, well, a little maybe, like thinking over things I shouldn't be thinking at this age. BUT the best thing about being young is things just can't go too wrong if you don't intend to. I know what I am doing. When certain bells ring, I will do what needs to be done.

And I do agree with my friend that I might have exaggerated the position of Mister in my life. That's normal, because I am lonely with not much friends and no family around. But it'll change very soon. Which something that I worry about.

There will be one day. After this day, I and Mister perhaps will not see each other in our life again. And perhaps by that time, none of us would care. How strange is that?