I don't feel guilty, just sorry.

It still hasn't reached a point that I know I can't love Mister for more. It just keeps growing.

I know he feels more or less the same too. There is no way I can deny how great it is to hear 'I love you' slipping out of his mouth, just that I feel sorry for him. It is quite a sad thing that you are with someone, but all you do is thinking about the other person and wishing he/she is here. I have been there before, I know how it feels. 

Especially this person right next to you is someone whom you have once loved so deeply that you decided to build a family together. It isn't something you can change your mind, too many consequences, too many boundaries, too much to handle. What is the reason behind? OR you never need a reason for extramarital sex?

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Term ends this week, heading to Seattle this Thursday, then ski trip in France, then revision, then off to Chengdu with Mister :-) :-):-)

But before that, one essay and one lab report due in Wednesday. URGH