Lesson taught by the Past

I was often worried that I held onto the habit of Mister too much.

Truth is, after I started to 'move forward' with Doctor especially, the more I understand how I have never actually let the past governed myself. I didn't regret any moment or time that I have spent with Mister and I still look forward to more. Realizing that this is not a 'mistake' I made feels terrible but enlightening.

You see, I am not writing this to judge myself, whether if having a married lover is right or wrong, wise or stupid. I am here to reflect yourself.

Being alone could be sad sometimes. I cried less often because I couldn't with the presence of Doctor, but it doesn't mean this is any better than without him.

Don't be scared. Be brave.

It's been 4 years.

有些人只說不做，有些人做了不多說。如果Doctor是前者，Mister便是後者。

時間過去，我跟Doctor穩定下來才發現，任誰也沒法填滿我空了一塊的心。我很想很想可以跟Mister在一起，也覺得我們是最適合。無論將來我要舍棄多少，都可以的。

這樣的決心真的很可怕，人愈大，發現像他這樣的人原來是非常難得，所以覺得值得。